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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Thursday, May 28, 2009

All I can say is i'm disappointed with what u are doing. Seriously.

I'm a failure towards friendship i guess. People always say once hurt is silly, twice is stupid? hahaha. yeah. true.

The first time when i was hurt, i told myself to cool down and reflect. I have to admit that i force u to face it too soon. I guess that is my problem. When i can do it, i expect others too. Because of this reason, i told meself " it wasnt totally ur fault" I told the rest too, i hope they would accept u again. Be friends again.

I know the feeling is different. But what can we do? It take time to bring the feeling back. U use to be someone we trust a lot, then once quarrel the friendship level change. This is y i say friendship is " FRAGILE" handle with care.

I use lot of effort to convince myself and others to accept u again. May be the feeling and such wouldn't be the same but at least we can still be friends.

But what r u doing now is like u r drawing a clear cut with us. telling us that we cant get back as friends.

There are different level of friendship rite? From close friends to causal? Impossible? U rather let go of this friendship totally.

I know u regret about it too. But if u choose not to come, it mean let go? Wouldn't you regret again?

No matter what, at least now i know the reason why u didn't wanna come. At least i wouldn't assume things and misunderstand u. It's ur choice. ya.

People who know what I'm saying. I wouldn't ask u guys to be friend with her or anything. But rmb. After i leave pls, don be childish and choose not to say even a "hi" I don want my friends to be childish. When u guy saw her. Pls say "hi"

If there are gathering again. Still bother to ask her. k.

In our stage now, we shouldnt be saying " I friend u or i dont"

Like what people always say. " Let the past be past.

:)

&the beauty.

Monday, May 25, 2009

291 days w/o qing...

When with my family to watch "Night at the Museum 2" hmmm... It was kind of below my expectation. Ok, indeed i have high expectation for movie. However Night at the Museum 2 was similar to the first. Just adding more characters. 2 out of 5 star.

Went out with sister on Sunday and get things i need. 1) Was at chinatown getting shampoo and such which cost us going 80 dollar. 2) After that we went Bugis to shop. Guess what did i buy? Vicky! The whole range of Vicky including www de. Another 200 spend! 3) Continue walking down we saw this facial thingy and i decide to go for it before i leave. Another 200 spend. oh, 4) bought my air ticket at 1223! 5) Gotta spend another 100 plus on external hard drive.

People, take care once i leave. May be maintaining the friendship would be a little problem once my school start. But it's ok. That's just life. Come and go? Dont disagree with this. Face reality. How many friendship would last? I'm just being super direct. hahaha

&the beauty.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

284 days w/o Qing...

Went back to BMSS ytd with Sya. Beginning i was quite worry about meeting up with Sya. Cos it was like 2 years plus we haven get to meet till ytd. Was kind of worry that we have nothing much to talk and the feeling would be weird!

To my surprise! The moment we met, we start with our unique way of communicating! Haha... Guess this is what we call friends. No matter how long we didn't get to meet, the moment we meet, we just want to talk. Talk till as if there is no tml! hahaha...

We walk around the school to look for teachers to our surprise, the students are having exam therefore there was no lesson. The school was sooo peaceful. We walk to the 4th level to look for Miss Lim. Yeah, she was not there. The main point here is, when we walk to the 4th level it was like memories flush back! I remember how we walk back to class tgt! Especially during sec 2 when the 3 of us are in the same class!

To be frank, Secondary school life was the best! I had my best and unforgettable memories with BMSS! Bmss wasn't a real good school but the bond we had with teachers and friends are unforgettable.

Sya, Qing and me had a friendship that is sooooo difficult for me to forget. Y? I guess quarrels and misunderstanding did help with building friendship. Shocked? Cos after all the conflicts it turn out that we know one another better. This is the highest level of friendship. They are both placed tooooo high in my friendship life.

Sya & Qing: if u 2 happen to read this post, i wanna tell u gals this. No matter what, i would rmb the 2 of u. How i wish one day the 3 of us can meet at BMSS. I would cry! for sure! I miss those time. By the time when 3 of us meet again, how old will we be? will we feel weird? Qing and Sya, you 2 have a strong impact towards me. I will remember u guys no matter what. I love both of u! hahaha...

After ytd, it make me realise times flies! The next time the 3 of us get to meet, i believe we are already in our 20s. When each of us had our career and moving towards our goal. May be we would all at different industry but the goal is still the same ya? Achieving something by ourselves. The sense of satisfaction.

I look forward to the day when the 3 of us can meet up again.

Miss...

&the beauty.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Dear Readers,

I'm being emotional today. It's like 1 month plus and i'm starting to feel confused and emotional. I was reading my secondary school friends blog and realize they are still meeting up. I'm super touch that they are able to do so. Unlike me, they meet in big group! I only have aaron, shumei, sya and Qing! hahaha. I think it's enough. Just them.

Was chatting with Sya online and realise how much we like one another acc. If Qing is in Singapore everything would be wonderful! I realise how much i love the memories i had with them during secondary.

Kinda prepared for a new life, gotta stay with www and family. Not www's family.

Visa and medical are done. But gotta acc www for medical again. It's ok, we can chat all the way! hahaha...

Watch this people!

Don ask when was it, i don rmb.

To this me

The next hairstyle

Then this

then bitchy!

Till this me...

hahaha.. i think within 2 years, i have been changing hairstyle! Gotta let it long again and decide what to cut again. hahaha

&the beauty.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Ok, i went for movie ytd. 17 again. It was a recommendation by brother. But it was kinda average only! haha. But guess what? The guy was handsome! hahaha.

17 again

I'm kind of confuse by the purpose of blog. Seriously. I thought blog was for me to say out how i feel. No matter what it is. I'm starting to regret about giving people my blog address cos it's getting so difficult for me to comment about others.

It have been years since i know u. We started as friends then start to realise something was wrong. After u told me about it( the issue). U become very very concern about my moves. I dare not use that word anymore. Think positively, it's just too concern. Cos of this, whenever i go out with anyone. There will be comments. Stop it ya.

I'm leaving, if this is going to continue then good luck. I'm gotta tell myself that " 1 month plus and i'm leaving" after that we wouldn't meet or even contact. Get this into ur head be4 it activate me to do that.

Don bother to ask who that person is. Cos it's not very impt. If u feel that u r that person then i believe u r kinda guilty or something. Then i believe i'm going to break the promise. I'm not going to stay in contact with u.

XW is irritated

&the beauty.