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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

Show David's nick in msn. Not sure if he is referring to me. But i'm touch that although i have reject him quite a few times. He still didn't give up. If you are referring to me and come to my blog to walk past can i know how are you going to break that wall? Just curious... If it's not referring to me then it's ok. haha. It's will be a good start for you to woo another gal. haha. Jia you. :)

Today's class was very relax because we need not do presentation as long as we can speak who is the one that inspire us. haha... During school hour get to know that yuqing will be back tml! OMG... TML! i miss her sooo much. Love her so much. That i got so excited lah. Then cant concentrate with lesson. haha. Called Aaron after knowing that she will be back soon. haha. I'm so excited! She will be back tml! it's tml! Love her...

After school.... Was getting bored after doing my PP. I still have conclusion and recommendation to do. haiz... Dont know what to write! I'm bored that why went to look for food so that the group of us with lz and may be wan leng's bf can go eat. We have agree to eat together every Friday! haha. excited about it lah. Will realise that my blog have lot of food! haha. Love them! haha.

Crisp, soft French loaf bread with minced beef, onions, eggs, mushrooms and cheese. Cant eat beef but was hoping there is chicken, cozy i don't take pork.

Nasi goreng pattaya...

Godzilla ($3), iced Milo topped with Milo powder and chocolate sauce and a scoop of ice-cream.

Have to end here le, still have to go tuition... haiz... tuition... tire!!

&the beauty.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

I'm happy again!!! yeah!!! haha. This should be me!~

Chill chill chill! happy happy happy. :)

&the beauty.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Out of a sudden i realise how fragile a friendship is. Till now, after those things that i mention, cried for stupid things. Is jsut because i felt a 1 year friendship is soooo fragile. 1 year? So? It dont mean anything! What he had send me actually let me know that he still don understand what he did wrong. After that day i think there is no need to get back the friendship with both he and she. I read what she msn with lz. It just make me more firm of nothing being wrong scolded both of you. Gal let me ask you, ask urself if u really totally didnt blame us? Check deep inside. U ask for the friendship back but do u think it's possible? Gal: i have know so many people i seen sure thing lots of time. I expect your answer when you say us cruel. What you told shiyuan is for sure not a joke. Because you are saying thing like, "now you happy le rite" then when she ask you what u mean u actually say " Not only u" Read this and tell me. Who in the world wouldnt treat those word real? On that day you can actually say "it's just word" Tell me... Who in the world wouldnt treat it as real? Any friends will!

After that day, ur stare and the way you speak. And till now i think we are totally different ya. I cant accept that u now. I cant. May be it's the real u. Just that i didnt know about it till that day. this is just ur real self? I give up already. Our character are too different. Our way of thinking and handling are different. I think i would be able to come out a conclusion soon. Whether to continue the friendship or not. From now on, anything that got to do with you and him i wouldnt bother. Look for better friend. I'm not worth your time to be friends. May be your friends would understand you better. I'm just not for you.

&the beauty.

Friday, July 25, 2008

I never blame anyone of you knowing about her smoking yet not telling me. I blame myelf for that. Because of grade and my present class, i neglect you this group of friends. If i didnt neglect you guys i would have know that she smoke. Totally didnt blame all of u. It's my fault. I neglect you guy, if i didnt, i would already know she smoke. I dare not promise that i will try because it's going to be difficult for me. I tried bring my present classmates to meet you guy just because i hope all can go out together and i wouldnt neglect neither side. Obviously, it would work! Every semester i tried. Every semester i failed. What more can i do? Every semester the same thing happen. NEGLECT!
Because of this, i'm telling all. Because i'm a KPO. I KPO of everything. That's why i have so many things to worry and trouble. All this problem and trouble, i brought it to myself de. I going to tell everyone. " Sorry and be prepared that there will be time when i neglect you guy" I dont mean it but that's my character. Sorry friends.

I did many wrongs today! That's the problem which i notice i always had. I always thought people can cope the way i cope. That's the worse thing that i tried to change but cant. I have been through things that is why i thought that by forcing someone to move the "correct" way it will be the best thing for them. I totally wrong after yesterday. I thought she leaving him will be the best thing. I thought if they break off she will be happier, i know it will be difficult in the beginning but after a period of time it will be fine. But i didnt expect it to be so difficult for her to handle. That's my wrong. I'm forcing her straight to face the world again. I'm wrong. All i say is, if you feel that patch back will be better then do that. Only when you feel that he is able to give you happiness. Only when you know that the same thing wouldnt happen. Seeing her like that remind me of the past. The stupid me. There is nobody in the world cannot live without one another. It's just the willing to open up or not. Take care gal.

没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生.... Is from a song. 我知道你很难过... Nice song.... Quite sad...

&the beauty.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

Think i need some break and jokes to cheer myself cozy i'm soooo tire! I wanna finish my PP(project) as soon as possible lah!!!!!! If not Qing come back on 31,1 and 2 i will feel that there is something that is not done yet. Cannot allow that to happen! I wanna do PP!!!! Dont have the mood to blog, Shall just show u guys a joke and a sunrise in Australia. Hope when i go Australia can view something so nice. haha

Not really a joke. But tell us how laugher and joke can help us....

Sunrise!!!!! In gold coast! I'm going off soon! 14 of August! hahaha... Yeah...

&the beauty.

Monday, July 21, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

Nice like dont know what rite? OMG... My group of bitch promise to go and eat with me and we have set every friday we will meet, to eat or to do FYP! haha. Like i mention we are the same kind. We know when to be serious and when to play! They are the first group of people whom have the similar character as me. Love them lot! Hope we can maintain this friendship... This is the website for more information about cakes and chocolate! Bitch: we will go there ya! Wait till this snake here finish peeling. :)http://www.canele.com.sg/happenings.htm

- I realise i have a very bad mindset! very bad. Me to, people around me should be sensible should be mature enough should know what is white and what is black. Obviously it will never happen because each of us have different attitude. Have different mindset. I think that is why when i know someone long i tend to get irritated because i realise their immature or isnt doing things that are rite. I have that attitude. I hate myself doing things like that. But there is no choice and i'm not going to change just to have more friends. I can tolerate but i'm not going to accept it.

- I realise people around me have motive. No matter what they do, there is a motive. To be frank, friends around... Ask yourselves who really use their heart to make friends? Or was is just because lonely because need friends? Or even because present? Or whatsoever? I tolerate all this nonsense from you people. But i have already placed you guys at the motive friends. I start to place each friends at different groups. But sorry. As i learn and know more friends i realise this is life. there are just so many different kind of friends with different character yet the only thing i can do is to tolerate.

- Thing are better more and more complicated. Last time people are less complicated because there is less competition. They are people who have simple wish and thoughts. People nowaday are complicated. Why not just go back to the past? Wouldnt it lessen stress? Apply it to singapore's situation. It's the same.

- Just now send my baby sister to school. Then went to buy my breakfast plus lunch cozy i wake up at 9plus. haha. Then bought some food for mummy, then when i come home she say "why you buy this? Who eat?" I told her "buy for you to eat de" then she say " I not hungry later buy too much who eat? Wasted... Blah blah blah" haha. But i know she feel touch de... cozy i rarely say "buy for you to eat de. haha"

kk... shall end here. I wanna study lor... Bye babes...

&the beauty.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

Archery

Sunday as usual went Archery. My new game. haha. Was fun. We learn how to aim lah. After learning how to aim shooting was easier. Oh, sis drive lor. She drive there lah! haha. was a little lost when we are in woodland but we still manage to reach Sembawang on time. haha.

My baby sis leg...

She was playing with my sis and me then who know she accidently drop the cup then cut herself by accident. Haiz... She cry lah! then my relative all at my house, was wondering what happen to her lor. Know how i stop her? haha. That plaster! haha. I told her i will give her her pretty pretty cute plaster. Cinderella. haha. Obviously not that Kenny( Cinderella) haha...

Ok I have Tution later! OMG! arhhh.... after this month i'm not going to tutor her anymore. It's time to leave. She's shouldnt waste her mum's money. Bye cheryl. U need a better tuition teacher. Have to stay in school till 7! Tuition at 8. muackz guys...

&the beauty.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

Eat about $26 for 5 person. :)

The four of us. Blurr cozy on the bus! Look me! so DARK! so RED!

Love them! They accompany me to dinner because i have no tuition then forces them to go with me. Not really forces lah. They went willingly.

The shop...

Packaging of food...

The chicken!!

Yesterday suppose to have tuition but because Cheryl(my student) was sick so there was no tuition. haha. Was actually very happy that there was no tuition lor. haha. :) then went dinner with Danz, chrystal and wan leng. OMG... We took bus from woodland all the way to Chinatown! Stupid?! yeah! we took for more than 1 hour. People who know me well sure know, i cant take bus that long! Was suffering in the bus! haha. Me and chrsytal cannot take it lor. haha. Then we reach chinatown we are like looking for the place to eat! Lucky got Wan leng's Bf... haha. If not think we will be wondering at chinatown for a long time then decide to just eat at coffee shop! haha. Thanks wan leng's bf! haha

Was reading a super confident person's friendster and realise many people comment about her too but she do not bother. Was funny and feel that she self confident level is high. To add on, people it's good to have self confident but not too much! Over confident will become proud and make people dislike you. :)

&the beauty.

Friday, July 18, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

cute rite the icon. haha. It so digesting and obviously so lazy. They are so digesting! eeeeeeee.... OMG, was looking at this picture and realise that i can take stupid people but not lazy people. Haiz. They are not really someone whom i can communicate with. People stupid can teach till they understand but lazy, there is never a way because they are lazy, no matter how many time you explain to them. They wouldnt understand. So stupid or lazy? U decide.

This dog so cute lah! It's chihuahua!!!! The first time i know there is chihuahua dog with hair! OMG! hahaha... so cute lah! still so mini! i want this dog!!!! So cute lor! i love it! Anyone? If u know about this dog tell me! I want! haha. muackzzz love this dog

&the beauty.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

The four of us...

Rowena and me! Obviously just finish bathing.

Yesterday went sun tan with my group of bitch. I'm not suppose to pose that "unglam" picture online. haha Therefore that's the most i can post. Was having a great time with them but I'm having sun burn now! It hurt like boiling! Like fire on me! So pain lor. My classmates are bullying me lor including Faci! OMG... I like sooooo red now! haiz, i learn my lesson. haha. Next time i will not purposely sun tan till so long! then now suffer! haha

Today was quite ok, beginning was worry that teammates would not cooperate with me but end up they DID! haha. Was happy about it but god is fair. If we make them work we will have to pay by losing a friend. Haiz... Think god is always fair. When you gain something you will have to pay back too. There is no free lunch in the world...

Was chatting with Danz just now and she send me things lah, i was so scare when i view lor. I scare later got ghost or what. So scare lah then leave the laptop quite a distance. haha. But turn out it was just something lame. No ghost de. haha.

Love my bitch! They are just so cute and lovable. They are the best female and click that i had! Bitch, serious and crazy! haha. that's just us. Other people dont understand and would feel that we are childish stupid or whatever. But just to let u guys know. When you are within the whole process! the WHOLE process you will realise it's fun. :)

&the beauty.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

I'm like the cartoon lah! haha...

Was reading through people's blog and realise that there are some things to make cleared! First of all, Jace the class didnt chose to be angry or trying to anti you or whatsoever. I'm telling you here, i admit you may be smart in some sense. But we dislike you not because you are smart or not. But because you are lazy and slack like dont know what. During presentation you took all the credit which the person who did most tend to be quiet cozy you speak everything! Remember there are times you sleep in class and we expect you to wake up and may be even bother to ask about the PPT. Turn out? You wake up and ask your teammates " PPT done already then send you" OMG... Because in RP presentation is so important to us, therefore if you chose not to do anything yet speak the most during presentation it will freak us off. Get me? And worse you tend to smoke through which show sometimes change the exact meaning of our presentation. How you understand.

LZ may be i'm just a person who dont know and dont like to express myself. Think back, have i even talk much about what happen to me. LZ, i dont allow you to know those few gals is just a way for me to protect my friends. Hope you understand.

Nicholas, i know there are some problems between you and elaine. But can you be more mature? Can you like show some concern and care or whatever. Dont always feel that elaine is different. Indeed she is different in some ways but she is still a female! Therefore are things that female expect during a relationship.

David, i'm glad to know you. Glad that there is a guy like you. Touch for whatever things you have done. I didnt cherish you. That's my fault. Always i tried to be friends to you i realise i cant. There is a invisible wall between me and you. I dont know what's that. I tried breaking the wall and make friends. I really tried. David, allow that previous david to come back. That lame and non-smoker david. ( I saw through your friendster) That joker david is gone. Like totally gone. It's my fault. I admit i didnt handle this friendship well. Or rather not only this, with W16M i didnt manage it properly.

People, i'm not those who have the skin to take and add guy in my msn when i dont know them. Just like Kevin( yana's friend) I really want to add him in my msn but i'm scared. I feel like chatting with him and know about him more but i CANT! My class of bitch, dont be shock to see me wanting yet scare to add him. haha. Cozy i scare. haha... But kevin is a real cute person. On Monday, i was like soooo happy lor! I saw him in the train! We are at the same train at the same time! OMG! haha... it cheer me up lah. I was so happy lah. haha.... Really hope to know him.

Of course there are happy things to be mention. haha. that is:

1)happy birthday to Faizal (hope i never spell wrongly)

2) today i felt better in the class because the conflict within the class seen to be better as compare as previous.

3) Kevin is cute!!!!

4) Tomorrow i'm going sentosa with my gals! haha. Sun tan! yeah! haha. Take more more picture! Love my group of bitches! haha.

&the beauty.

Monday, July 14, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

This is the group of bitch. There is more just that i didnt get to take picture with all of them. btw, it's my

previous hairstyle. Didnt realise that hairstyle make my face BIG!!!!

This cartoon really allow me to express what i mean to this group of Mpeople in my class. OMG... they are... U know... No respect... And yet, it's like the thief call for thief! haha. OMG. No brainers. Cannot take it. Arhhh... Anyway, they are just a passer-by of my memories! Memories~ they are just a negative memories so that i know i should treasure the other friends. My group of bitches it class. haha. They are noisy but at least they wouldnt go around bitch about people. Or even they are not lazy! They will help with doing of presentation yet not claiming the credit. Or even talk rubbish.

Qing will be back on 31 of July!~~~~ OMG... I'm going crazy!!!! i need her. I will skip school for her. I will! muackzz... Qing i love u. hahaha I miss u

&the beauty.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

My baby sis and me... Her ugly smile

This is a better cute smile of her. haha

Took this picture after meet vanessa. Went to meet my family. haha. Then on car take pic with her.

The mouth! with Teeth!

Daddy went on ship on friday afternoon to sea lah! He and his fren went fishing lah! at the middle of sea! so cool rite? I'm so interested lah. But mummy dont allow. She say all uncle(men lah) haha. Ask brother to video and show us. haha

Our family new car! This car is for my bro and sis lor. So good rite. haha. Inside got a weirdo lah! that's my Brother! haha. Mazda!!!

The internal look...

&the beauty.

Friday, July 11, 2008

( Me, Shirley and Danz)

Continue from the previous post because i was taking picture with them. haha. Know what so funny? We had the same hair style. Okok. Not same. Similar ok. haha. They are so funny lah. Shirley = Window 95. Danz = bitch. hahahahaha... She really very joker. If you know her you will laugh alot.

k lah. end here. I want to drink bubble tea :-) then go for tuition. haiz. Don feel like going tuition. Cant take it after that anger with Jace. She's the best. People should know i'm rarely that angry with people at least people like her. No words to say her. Haiz.

&the beauty.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I'm always happy! I love myself! My family! My friends!

haha.. Finall back to blogspot. haha. I'm always changing blog. Think people who know me should know about it. haha... I wanna leave my footstep at all blogs. I'm trying to but it's difficult. So back to blogspot.

Qing is coming back very soon!!!!! I miss her like crazy. She will be back on 31 july! OMG... I'm so excited!!!The 3 days when she is back i will give her all my time and she have to give me all her time too. I am willing to skip lesson for her. People around me will be shock but pls don! cozy she is back for only 3 days. We have been separated for 2-3years. I will spend my times with her! I love her! haha. QING faster comes back!

My present class there is someone called Danz. She is someone whom i admire because she's similar to me. She knows when to be serious and when to play. She would bring me back when i lost focus. Thanks gal. She is a bitch i must say. haha. Bitch as in those who are noisy and a lot of jokes. haha. She unique and of course a unique laugher.
This is me and Danz. My previous hairstyle. Haha. Just cut off me hair. :)

Just now was having my discussion with class and of course presentation. I'm so angry! this is the first time i'm experiencing discussion problem with this person name JACE! I'm not going to bother if she will read this or not cozy she is the worse slacker and lazy person i know. She dont bother to make the effort to understand what we are doing and when she don understand she actually blame us? What's that attitude? She think she is a model? OMG... Xuesha is so much hotter than her! pls lah!

&the beauty.