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Thursday, September 11, 2008

Thursday, September 11, 2008

40 days w/o Qing.

I'm so stress! Today was the worse day. I realise nobody understand me! Sometimes not even close friend. I apologize to the whole world that I'm sorry, i tend to have the habit of putting my character to others. I will feel that since i can, then others will also be able too. It's just the beginning of the semester and i am facing problem communicating with friends. I admit, i concentrate too much on studies this semester. I know i have different working style as my classmates but i'm sorry. I cant change. I like the feeling of doing everything. As in not split work, i know it's faster that way but when we split i tend not to be able to understand. Once there is something that i cant understand i will get irritated. Feel like crying! Family problem, relationship, friendship and now, school work! @#$%^&... Give me peace. I can joke with anyone act like nothing happen but deep inside, it hurts. I cant find anyone to speak to. CANT... I dont know how to tell you guys.

What Danz say is true, "there is nobody who can understand you except youself" True. But i hope i can find someone who at least understand why i'm so sad. Cry cry cry! that's all i can do to release my emotions. Wonder why not i just tell my parents, at least someone will listen? Cozy i will only be speaking to the wall. They wouldnt understand. They will just ask me to leave my friends alone. Dont bother, then? I need to leave my whole class alone? I cannot afford to get Cs! I cant! I cant let my GPA drop! Y not u guys understand? I know if i choose to keep quiet and leave my friends alone. Hack care them then? It will just affect my day in school and overall? Affect my grade? The whole class just suck! Get out of my life! I have enough! From tml onwards, i will let you guys do what you want. Split slide and others, i wouldnt mind already because we are standing at different point. Of course, we will split and i will just do what i can. Read up as much as i can. That's all i can do to minimise quarrels and cozy you guys cant accept when people are frank. U guys just feel that you are right. Now i understand what it mean by there is a mountain that is higher than the others.

I accept everything that u guys said about me. I accept. Sorry... Sorry... Sorry...

&the beauty.

Myself...~~I'm a crazy person with split personality. When i'm studying i'm a totally different person but when i'm not i will be a very lame and crazy person.~~ ?

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